Dog days are over

  The important question that a person asks himself/herself after ending a certain chapter in his/her life while the new is now opened is if this person will experience even greater pain or approach it with a completely new energy. 

  Of course, this person is me. I am here writing only about my personal lessons and experiences. Probably just wanted it to sound nobler. Recently I have closed the chapter beautifully called "depression and anxiety" and I believe that I also have ended it quite successfully. It had lasted for over six years. Therefore, the day came when I fully digested (not a huge fan of the word) all the strong emotions that I have felt: the pain, the sadness, the hopelessness. This realisation helped me to end the whole process. And it worked!

  As we all aware, within the end comes the new. Quite of a cliche, but how true it is! I can say that this new beginning is very interesting, mainly because I am truly conscious and aware of who I am now. It is almost visible, substantial, for my life energy has changed and from now on I look at problems that are befalling to me from a different angle. Actually, they are not problems anymore but rather challenges. And it depends completely on me how I am going to react to them. 

  

  I can observe the change in approaching the sad situations in my life. Instead of soaking into them, I try to find a different path, which is healthy for my body and my mind. I would not say that this is some kind of escape from the problem, no, rather it is a conscious managing with what is not serving me well. A lot of habits that have been with me for a long time are gone now. I do not practice self-destruction anymore, I simply do not return to those things that not so long ago were giving me a sense of relief, simultaneously they were destroying me bit by bit. 

   The dog days are over and it's for real. I want anything that is best for me. As I said, it is a new chapter, new energy, different attitude. I wish myself standing strong without any breakdowns (at least for now);)). 

  What helps me now is naming things that are happening to me. The moment I name it, half of its weight is gone.  Possibly, it is the only solid advice I can give to anyone who is struggling. It can a conversation with someone or simply with yourself, or writing or recording yourself.   

  I have returned to the place where my process had its most severe moments. I have returned here, for I wanted to see if my energy is the only thing that makes a difference. And it is. Your mood or your well-being doesn't depend on where you are. It only depends on how you are going to face it. I am here again, for I can now completely devote myself to the rules of life. And I wish the same to everyone who is still trying to figure out what life's actually about. 

John Mayer - Moving on and getting over

Florence and the Machine - Dog days are over

Larry Levan Gospel Celestial Choir - Stand On The Word (V.O) & Keedz